Laziness as of Late

Yep, that's been me, lazy, slothful... it sucks. Maybe after a bit of blogging today, I will get off my ass finally and get something done. Since my apartment is in shambles, I think I will start with cleaning... that will get a semi decent workout... and after that maybe I'll stay off my ass and do some strength training. I just need that nudge. It's been difficult lately since I'm off work for an entire month... it's so much easier to sleep in, lay around, and not do anything.

Today is my little brothers birthday. He's turning 12. It's crazy how fast he grows up. I miss when he was little, sometimes.
It was about a week or so ago when I was playing catch with him outside my parents house, and he said he could never imagine me or our mother being skinny.
Yes, we have been overweight his whole life. It makes me sad. I was 13 when he was born. I have been fat more than half of my life. Damn, that is depressing.
I am out to prove my brother wrong. Not to spite him, but to have him be proud of his sister, to see her as a great role model and leader.
I however, am glad that this is the way I have been all of his life so far though... would you like to know why?
So he isn't that boy... the boy that won't date a fat girl, the boy that will make fun of her with his friends, the boy who makes that fat girl cry at night. No... my brother WON'T be that boy.
My brother won't be that boy who broke my heart all those teenage years.

Cheeseburger vs. Weight Loss

Yesterday was Bryan's birthday. Rich foods, yummy desert, bouts of laziness. That's what birthdays are about right?
I did well keeping to my nutrition intake. Spent most of the day sitting in front of the tv putting his present together and wrapping it as well.
Pork tenderloin, mashed potatoes, green beans and salad. Wonderful dinner. Probably more calories than I would have taken in had I been eating at home. It's going to be tough eating at other places. But since I made room for the calories I knew I would be consuming, I even had room for the piece of chocolate bunt cake with cherries and whip cream. And it was de-lish!

After eating dinner we drove out to Wash, MO to do mundane things that couples do. Went to pick up some gaskets for his car. A pineapple from Aldi's. And trolled around Kohls to see if there were any good deals. Very exciting things, I tell you. We watched some of the baseball game and goofed around in his room. Pretty soon it was 10 and I needed to head home. We said our goodbyes, shared giggles between kisses, and I got in my car.

That is when the thoughts came...

cheeseburger
double cheeseburger
greasy double cheeseburger
with mayo
and ketchup
and extra cheese
and bacon!

bacon ultimate cheeseburger from jack in the box

The thoughts were so strong that I could almost taste it. Oh how wonderful it would taste. How spectacular it would be. How long it's been since I've had one.

That long hour drive home didn't make it any easier. However, what made it easier? I don't think I pass by a single jack in the box on the way home. THANK GOD.
Anywho... I resisted the urge, came home, and went to bed. And when I woke up this morning, I weighed myself(I'm really bad about weighing myself everyday) and trahlah! I have lost another 2.2 lbs in the past week!

So, I share with those who struggle with resisting that urge.... which is more important?

calories 1090
fat 77g
saturated fat 30g
cholesterol 140mg
sodium 2040mg
carbohydrates 53g
fiber 2g
sugars 12g

OR

Seeing smaller numbers on this.